Take a load off. You deserve a rest. 🪁

Welcome back to Sunday Scripture, a weekly three-card reading to help you to future-proof your week.

Hello lovelies, this is your reading for the week ahead, beginning September 14th, 2020. BUT, as with all readings, if you have been guided towards this page at ANOTHER TIME, trust that it is MEANT TO BE and applicable to your life now. This has always been true for me and I’m sure it will be for you too if you can just sit back and surrender to the he/she/it that guides you. There is a bigger energy present in all our lives – patient, ready, loving (albeit in a sometimes brutal way) – waiting for us to open up and let it in. The more you look, the more you learn to see. The more you listen, the more you start to be able to hear.

As we move into the third week of September, the focus is on looking at and reassessing our boundaries around what and how much we take on, paying close attention to what we are carrying and what new tasks and chores we agree to add. Instead of all work and nothing else, incorporate play into your life and spend the latter half of the week enjoying and even sharing that activity worth others. That way, when it comes to the weekend, you will be revved up and recharged, ready to take on the world again as you see fit.

This reading’s cards come from the Dreaming Way Tarot; deck by Rome Choi, published by U.S. Games Systems, Inc. with artwork by Kwon Shina. Check out their website – if you can find it (I can’t) – if you like what you see and see or go to Amazon to get your own deck.

The cards drawn are:

  • The Ten of Wands
  • The Queen of Cups
  • The Page of Wands

Watch the video below to get the full reading, then send me a message and share what it awoke or sparked in you.

Our card for Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday is The Ten of Wands. In it we see a man – worn thin, exhausted, bent double – picking up sticks. Yet as he stoops to pick the next one up, note how he’s also dropping several more from the pile he’s collected previously, sabotaging what he already has in attempting to manage and juggle more. This card is is telling you to stop being everyone and eveyrthing’s “yes” (wo) man and instead start becoming your own personal advocate, for if you don’t look after yourself, pretty soon you won’t be much use to anyone else either and nobody wins. Try putting down a few wands. Experiment with how it feels to have a “later” list and even to say “no”. Saying “no” can be super scary and even rock a few boats, but it gets easier and people do adapt. And soon you’ll be feeling so much better anyway, what other people say and think won’t matter so much. Start by listing the things you are carrying and sorting them in order of importance. You aren’t super human. You can’t be all things to all people. So work out who and what you want to serve and put that and them first. Later – if you have space, energy and time – you can add to this with things further down your list.

Our card for Thursday and Friday is The Queen of Cups, a super lovely and really positive card. Here, we see a woman and her child sharing a wooden throne, looking out across the landscape together. This card makes me think of a mother and daughter curled up on the sofa with a bowl of popcorn watching their favourite movie. It feels special because usually the mother, who is after all a queen, is working and the child is left alone to entertain herself with her own devices and here they are united in a treat, both indulging in time off. Take YOUR weekend early this week and put your feet up. You DESERVE a rest. Better yet, check in with your inner child and ask them what they would really like to do. Maybe they want to bake something or draw a picture? Maybe they want to go out foraging? Maybe they want to visit something of cultural interest or go somewhere entirely new? Whatever your inner child wants – and your real children too if you are a fur or skin child mother – indulge them for a few days in order to recoup, fortify, refurnish and restore. You will thank yourself for this later.

Our card for Saturday and Sunday is The Page of Wands, which basically means time to go back to work. After having treated your week like a weekend: the message now is treat your weekend like your week, taking advantage of all of the power and energy that slowing down and resting and playing has cooked up. There is encouragement here too, because in order to leap into this new space of creating you will need to get wet. That means take off your socks and shoes and risk damaging your pedicure because the real treasure is in that dark inner place where the things you resist hide. The universe is calling upon you to birth a new project, or to release the one you have been nurturing and cultivating for some time. But in order to do so you need to also get up close and personal to some of the things you have been carrying around in order to release them. To have a healthy birth, for that baby to be healthy, there first needs to be a purging – much like in an actual birth where the body rids itself of all that it has been carrying in advance of delivering the infant. First purge, then labour and deliver. Do it this way and you will be more likely to achieve the success of which you dream.

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If you would like to know more about what is going on right now and would also like to hear more about my thoughts… I discuss the things that are coming up for me and how I am attempting to mother, manage, navigate and clear them in my own life on my YouTube channel in a section called A Little Light.

There are also lots of tarot card readings covering topical issues, as well as love, relationships, career, health and life, etc.

If you would like a personal reading, you can contact me here – Book a Tarot Reading 📆 and together we can plant the seeds for transformation, change and healing in your life.

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Is it in my highest good to walk away from this relationship ‘right now’, or am I supposed to stay where I am for the time being? 🧵

Relationship reading for romantic, familial and platonic relationships to see if the person in question is worth all of the effort and/or even supposed to still be in your life.

Relationships can be tricky things, especially if we really care for the person we are with, and even more so if we have been together for a long time. But regardless of the duration of your relationship: knowing whether you are in the right place and just journeying through something on a cosmic level that needs to be aired and shared and is supposed to be happening to and for the both of you in order for a trauma (yours or ancestral) to be healed, or whether you are stuck stubbornly treading water because the path you were on together has reached its end and you just aren’t ready to see and accept that as the case yet, is pretty important and vital. Getting it wrong can lead to unnecessary pain and cost time in years. We come together for a reason, always, no matter who we are with and who we meet. Even the disasters are supposed to be. What isn’t supposed to be, however, is a prolonged bad anything. It is not ok to be in a relationship where there is a lack of respect. It is not ok for there to be a dismissal of personal boundaries. It is not ok for there to be shouting and anger and unkind words if those actions aren’t swiftly followed by a retraction, surrender and apology. There are good relationships and there are bad relationships and there are extenuating circumstances. But even here there are lines and there is a limit to what we should be ok with.

Are you putting up with more than you should be and accepting less than you deserve?

Are you in a stalemate and waiting for someone who doesn’t want to, or has been left behind, to catch up and change?

Are you accepting second, or even third or fourth, best behaviour when you need and in your heart you know you should be experiencing so much more?

This reading is intended to be a guide to help you to sort through the questions that you are juggling so that you can come away feeling more decided and clear. It is not a black and white answer. It is not a “yes” or “no”. It is a conversation you can have with yourself while or after you are listening to me to hold up the mirror of truth to what is. What you do next is up to you.

This reading’s cards come from the Dreaming Way Tarot; deck by Rome Choi, published by U.S. Games Systems, Inc. with artwork by Kwon Shina. Check out their website if you can find it (I can’t) if you like what you see and see or go to Amazon to get your own deck.

The cards drawn are:

  • The Wheel of Fortune
  • The Six of Pentacles
  • The Seven of Swords
  • The Nine of Pentacles

Watch the video below to find out what it’s message is. Then send me a message and share what it awoke or sparked in you.

Below is a brief summary of the cards pulled in case you don’t have time to watch the video. But you will get much more from it if you do.

The Wheel of Fortune sits in the position of the past and shows a women spinning at a wheel with a spindle, trying but failing to spin a perfect spool of yarn. She’s on her knees, up close and personal to her equipment, putting her heart and soul into it. And her intentions are pure. Yet we can see she’s failing miserably, unable to produce a satisfactory, or even a useable, result. Instead, what she is producing appears to be a tangled mess. This card indicates that in the past you have tried, over and over, to create and to live within a healthy right relationship with both yourself and your partner(s) but there have been blocks that have always stood in your way and no matter how often you showed up or how hard you tried, something was always there thwarting your efforts and tearing your achievements and progress down. Perhaps this was just your fate and there is/was nothing you can or could have done about it? Perhaps it’s because it takes two to create a beautiful relationship and you have/are mostly sat working the wheel alone? Or perhaps it’s simply because you are forever choosing the wrong thread? Sit with this and reassess the situation and let that guide you how to best continue.

The Six of Pentacles sits in the position of the present and shows us a woman begging at the feet of a man. She is wearing white, as well as wearing a turban, which shows us she is on a spiritual path and that her intentions, at least here, are pure. Next to her there is a beggar, humbled and desperate, happy to accept any scraps that are given regardless of their quantity or quality. But the man they are prostrating themselves to, who looks at least materially wealthy, as in rich in objects and earthly things, is on a different path and has distractions which do not concern them. They are there as dependants, things that need taking care of once in a while, things that can be subdued and placated with a little every so often, like a pet, but not there as a focus of energy or attention in his life. Neither the woman nor the beggar are a priority, or even of much concern or importance at all. Which leaves the woman having to pay for the attention and time she gets in acts of service and kindness and the beggar involuntarily wearing a crown of humility and gratitude for something that is essentially useless. One has become a prostitute in an attempt to get their needs met, the other an acolyte. And all the while the former is still hoping to receive time and tenderness and the latter something useful like a job. This card is calling into question the matter of balance in your life and how even and fair things are. If there is inequality in your relationship; if one person is giving too much and the other showing up only to take: things need talking about and changing immediately if there is to be a harmonious future ahead.

The Seven of Swords – which pairs with this card in the present – highlights more energetic imbalances. Here we see a man running away from us, legging it home in order to stash his horde of swords. He is a thief, running off with what isn’t his because instead of earning it fairly or being given it freely as something that wanted to be given, he has snuck in and taken it regardless, to have and to keep all for himself. There is no unity here, no comradeship, no ‘you’ and ‘me’. It is all ‘mine’, ‘mine’, ‘mine’; absolutely no sharing. This man is scared that he will not have enough or not be prepared for whatever it is he believes is coming and for that reason he is not working together with you; he is just building his own home according to his design. This could be a mental home or a career home, but it’s not a love one. For a love reading: note how there are no love or romance cards. We are lacking the suit of Cups. And we are lacking the energy of union and comradeship too. It’s each to their own and one man against the world, so where does that leave you? Maybe you are included in this ‘my house’, ‘my world’ mentality. And if so: is it where you really want to be? Is it the energy you want to fill a home with? And if not: where does that leave you and what is happening to your house?

The Nine of Pentacles sits in the space of the future and shows us a woman celebrating financial success after having planted a crop of seeds which have grown to yield a healthy crop. This card is telling us that we have to separate our energies and focus more on ourselves. Which means we also have to stop pouring all of our time and energy into others. The overriding message here is, “first fix yourself”, applying your own oxygen mask before turning to the problems and dramas of those around you, for they will always be there and you can never keep up because the world is forever turning. If you can do this while in your current relationship and choose to do so: then by all means try. The universe is behind you here because it’s in the cards for you to succeed in what you turn your hand to. But if you find that you are too distracted or your time is not your own, or you are not emotionally able to focus on or begin anything from the space you are in now: then the message is to cut the thread, disentangle your energy and your life and begin again alone. You are strong and whatever you apply yourself to, so long as you are not distracted by things that are outside of and, ultimately, beyond your grasp, will grow. Decide how you want to grow and what you want to be growing and then figure out the type of soil you need to be tilling and nurturing.

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If you would like to know more about me and the things that stir me, ignite me and light me up and would also like to hear more about my personal take on things that are important and relevant to the collective right now… I discuss them on my YouTube channel in a section called A Little Light.

There are also lots of tarot card readings covering topical issues, as well as love, relationships, career, health, finance and life, etc.

If you would like a personal reading, you can contact me here – Book a Tarot Reading 📆 and together we can plant the seeds for transformation, change and healing in your life.

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Hit me where it hurts 💔

Sunday Scripture: to help you to future-proof your week.

This is your reading for the week beginning September 7th, 2020 – but as with all readings, if you have been guided towards this page at another time then trust that it is meant to be and applicable to your life now.

As we move into the second week of September, the focus is on weathering emotional injury (injury that is incurred as a result of the actions and words of others), turning our attention to new projects and rising above and riding the storm. In the first half of the week, we find ourselves challenged on multiple levels by those around us and their words and actions hurt. The second half of the week lends some catharsis to this in the form of purpose and work, providing us an outlet and a channel for our hurt. And the weekend opens up a space for introspection and self-evaluation, a time to be thankful for how far we have come but also to acknowledge the price we have had to pay and the storms we have and still are having to weather.

This week’s reading comes from the Radiant Rider-Waite Tarot deck, published by U.S. Games Systems, INC., with artwork based on drawings by Pamela Coleman Smith. Check out their website if you like what you see and see or go to Amazon to get your own deck.

The cards drawn are:

  • The Three of Swords
  • The Three of Pentacles
  • The King of Cups

Watch the video below to get the full reading, then send me a message and share what it awoke or sparked in you.

Our card for Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday is The Three of Swords. This card is often a difficult card, especially while we are travelling through it, but it is also a valuable resource and an opportunity to go inside. Find stillness and really take time to learn from your experiences. What are the messages that you are receiving from these altercations and slights? Get out your journal and make notes, you will look back and thank yourself for the gems you left. The Three of Swords tells us that the start of the week could contain some emotional conflict. This might be an argument with a friend, a disagreement at work, a lover betraying you, or a stranger flinging insults for no apparent reason. Or it might mean loss; loss of someone you really care about. All of these things hurt and the wounds they inflict last. Be gentle with yourself and find time to tend to this. BUT… this is also an ideal time to let the tears flow and really open up and empty out what is trapped inside your heart. What other long-held grievances are you keeping in there? What trials and traumas rest hidden so that only you can see them? Embrace the gift of the suffering this week and use it as a vehicle to release a life’s worth of carrying. Cry and be proud of yourself for the gift of this purging.

Our card for Thursday and Friday is The Three of Pentacles, a much lighter and brighter card than it’s sister above. This card is all about starting new projects, being creative and building things, and working with others to combine skills. And it’s about working on something of worth and birthing a project that is sacred, whether it’s sacred with a big ‘S’ and applicable to the world as a vehicle for transformation and healing, or sacred with a small ‘s’ and meaningful just to you. Perhaps, too, you could use this energy to transform your pain into purpose, betrayal into beauty, trauma into triumph, rejection into radiance, taking the hurts from the start of the week and releasing them here.

Our card for Saturday and Sunday is The King of Cups. This is a good end to the week as cups are all about love and relationships and kings represent mastery, so the King of Cups reveals our having achieved (or being in the process of achieving) mastery of these things. The king tells us we have a good grasp of our emotions having done a lot of deep inner work over the years, facing up to our demons and successfully releasing as many of them as was possible; maybe even more of them than we think we have. And for those we still carry, we are able to be honest about them now and are in the process of purposefully attempting to put them out. BUT… as we all know, some things – people, places, events – are harder to part ways with than others. However, doing personal work results in growth and growth results in becoming different from what we were before and therefore to those around us. So if you are feeling alone and without a tribe, because your tribe no longer feels like a safe, friendly space or a comfy home to reside within, have no fear. Your new tribe is coming, you are just in a liminal, central holding space where there is still old stuff that needs to be released before your true SOUL TRIBE can come in.

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If you would like to know more about what is going on right now and would also like to hear more about my thoughts… I discuss the things that are coming up for me and how I am attempting to mother, manage, navigate and clear them in my own life on my YouTube channel in a section called A Little Light.

There are also lots of tarot card readings covering topical issues, as well as love, relationships, career, health and life, etc.

If you would like a personal reading, you can contact me here – Book a Tarot Reading 📆 and together we can plant the seeds for transformation, change and healing in your life.

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Have a browse, give me a thumbs up, subscribe and leave a comment if you have anything you would like to share, ask or add. 

Thank you for reading and have a brave and beautiful day. x

Why does this keep happening to me? 🐞

Ever wondered why – when you are just going about your quiet, polite business – you suddenly get attacked? Or asked: what is it about me that just attracts this kind of behaviour? Ever had your day totally turned upside down by another person’s outburst when all you were doing was minding your own business and trying to be inconspicuous and nice? I think most of us have.

But why does this happen? And why, specifically, is it happening now?

This reading is intended to dial in to the energy of the perpetrator, the he or she who is or has attacked you, in order to better understand it and from there proceed with a bit more compassion for the source. After all, if we better understand our own energy and see him or her not as an antagonist but as a teacher and a guide, life becomes more pleasant and manageable. The medicine, the lesson they are here to help us to learn, is sweeter.

So… why are you attracting this behaviour and why does it keep happening?

The King of Swords is a sad and lonely individual. See how he sits in isolation on the top of an uninhabited hill, perched on the edge of a cliff with no one for company. See how his clothes are heavy and oversized, like they were intended for someone else. His sword too. And his throne is narrow and hard. It is not a comfortable or a family-oriented place. He has great ambition and lofty goals – he seeks to rule and own a kingdom – but just keeping his throne and not getting usurped takes up all of his daily energy. And somehow he doesn’t trust the world or anyone in it anymore, so he can’t let anyone come close in case their softness and goodness rubs off on him and makes him weak. When he attacks you, therefore, it’s not personal. It’s not what you did or said. It’s your energy and light, coupled with his unconscious awareness of your desire to step in and be of service were you to get to know him in any way. He senses your empathy and compassion for all people, your desire to help those who are in need, and this threatens his code and agreement with the world, because if he were to also see all people as good and worthy, then he couldn’t be king, because being king requires that you trample those who are beneath you and consider them underfoot, and you cannot hope to acquire wealth and great fortune unless you are aloof, disassociated and strong. A king lives, after all, off the taxes of the people.

The Seven of Pentacles reveals who the King of Swords used to be, before he lost himself to ambition. This man is the boy next door, a man who has come from humble beginnings and who has big dreams, a man who believes in the universe and in a kind world. But while the king dreams of owning a kingdom and ruling over those whom he considers weak, while he considers his own importance paramount regardless of the cost: the Seven seeks only to own a humble plot and to manage his crop. He too seeks to own and rule over a kingdom, but it is a private one and it has a cap. He would like a few fields, a few vines, enough wealth to manage his land and employ help where necessary, the means to clothe and feed his family and meet their needs. He is the same man as the king, but he is open and trusting and grounded and he does not fear that what is his will be taken if he isn’t always on the offensive and up for a fight.

So now we understand the personality of the energy that is attacking or draining us, and have more compassion for it and understanding of its nature, the Ladybird is here to offer us some wisdom and advice.

  • Accept happiness and good fortune where you find them.
  • Look for the gifts that are scattered subtly and sweetly about your life.
  • Focus on the good things and use them to balance out the things that you don’t like.
  • Practice gratitude daily.
  • And when you have dark forces, chords and entanglements that need to be cleared, turn to the ladybird for help. They are specialised in flapping their wings and flying you back home.

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If you would like to know more about what is going on right now and would also like to hear more about my thoughts… I discuss the things that are coming up for me and how I am attempting to mother, manage, navigate and clear them in my own life on my YouTube channel in a section called A Little Light.

There are also lots of tarot card readings covering topical issues, as well as love, relationships, career, health and life, etc.

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Thank you for reading and have a brave and beautiful day. x

Do you have a resident energy vampire? 🧛🏻

Just going about our lives takes a lot of energy. We have tasks, chores and responsibilities, both to ourselves and others. Then there are our relationships and the commitment, effort and emotion we bring to them. All before we even get to work, appointments and meetings. And this is just the surface layer: our lives are full of so many different things…

Add to that world dramas – of which, currently, there is no shortage – and it’s no wonder we are feeling a bit lacklustre. Some might even say burnt out; fried by the constant push and pull of demands and the pace and passion of the media. I know I am not alone in having reached a point of overload.

Which is why self-care is so important. And why we need to get plenty of sleep and do things like meditation, breathwork and exercise. And take care of ourselves by eating right and living in a clean environment. There is a lot we can do from the ground up to support ourselves. But it is a daily job and sometimes it isn’t enough.

What if, despite all of this, something is still draining us?

What if part of us or part of someone else’s behaviour is sabotaging or taxing us?

This reading is intended to get to the bottom of what might be draining you, because we all have energy vampires 🧛🏻‍♂️🧛🏻🧛🏻‍♀️ in our lives!!!

The first thing to notice about this reading is it’s need for attention. Usually, I pull one or two cards and wait for that to lead me. If things are still unclear or if there is a need for further information about something the reading has brought to light, I will then draw more, using my intuition to guide me. This reading demanded five cards outright; three literally leaping out of the pack. The cards were full of energy and adamant they be heard, which only adds to the importance of their message.

The Page of Pentacles shows us where our energy is being spent; literally, as pentacles are the money cards. The Page is an enthusiastic childlike character, usually a student, intent on a learning and mastering path. He is either seeking to polish skills or acquire new ones. This Page is focussed on financial improvement and is hard at work studying something that will bring in money and grow his life in that regard. Indicating that you are expending considerable energy on trying to build your career or business, and that the leak is most likely, but not necessarily, related to something to do with work. Are you trying to break into a new area, acquire skills, breathe life into a static situation, or pivot or reinvent yourself? Dreams take focus, drive and energy. To counter-balance this, we must be mindful that we are also filling up our tank with plenty of self care. The mountains in the background indicate obstacles to achieving the dream the Page is picturing. Perhaps these obstacles are the things that are draining you? Can you think what they are? Can you shift them in your mindset so that they are more digestible and appealing? The Page is a power card and an energy card and one full of manifestation. When he is in our life we can celebrate: things are underway, we are building, life is changing. We just need to pay attention to and take extra care over the rest of our life, so that we stay healthy. When you were younger and you were studying for an exam, did you not eat right and make sure you also had plenty of rewards to keep up your enthusiasm? Your body needs this from you still, so pay attention to your present moment and be a good parent.

The Five of Cups seeks to explain where other parts of our energy might be being spent, helping to bring clarity to why we might feel like we are running out of it. After all, time spent studying and learning and acquiring new skills, although challenging and mentally draining, is positive energy usage and therefore self-charging. Don’t you always feel energised by learning something new; picking up a new insight? The Five of Cups, however, is a very different energy, because it is all about disappointment, despondency and regret. This card can simply be explained by the phrase “crying over spilt milk”. The character in this card is sad and distracted from his present life and its wealth by that which he has lost. He is stuck in the past, wishing things were different and could be different now. Where are you lamenting over things that are behind you? What do you regret not having, losing or breaking, even? Why is what you don’t have so much more valuable to you than what you have? This preoccupation with the past and things that didn’t turn out the way you liked, is your energy vampire. Think about who you might need to forgive and get on a path of releasing and healing. If you don’t want to do it alone, or can’t, a therapist would be useful and help make it easier.

Our next card, the Knight of Wands, is brave and energetic and full of enthusiasm. He is gainfully employed and happy to be serving both his kingdom and his community. This energy usage, although high, is positive, because it is the act of creation; so no need to worry here. The Knight, given his mission, has a clear picture in his head of what he is intending to accomplish, a strong desire in his heart of what he hopes this will reap, and a tug of intuition in his belly of how to acquire it. Therefore, if we are also the Knight, we are likely investing a lot of energy into our crusade – the crusade of the Page of Pentacles, the crusade to build the life we want to build in our world. This is not an energetic vampire, however, for the pursuit is one of enthusiasm and passion, and, like the Page, self-charging. This card merely shines a light on where energy is going. It is a window, not a call for attention or a cry for help.

The Ace of Wands is another manifesting card, in which we are using our wand – our creativity, our intuition and imagination – to create change. The hand coming out of the clouds indicates that we are channeling a lot of what we are doing right now directly from Source, (or our higher self, or our guides, or whoever it is we receive from). This work is tiring and takes a lot of energy, but it is rewarding too and so not the source of our exhaustion. But picture the image on the card, or see it in the video: you are attempting to create your ideal life – the lush green landscape, the full blue stream, the castle on the hill. This level of manifestation and pulling into being is hard work. Do not under estimate how much energy this is using. Appreciate that, and give thanks to your mind and body for staying strong for you. And, again, up the levels of self-love and care.

The Two of Swords concludes our reading and reveals to us the solution. We are at a metaphysical crossroads. We are pulling in different directions. Essentially, a stand off. In order to make the future arrive in all of its glory, as in arriving as a future we can be happy in and feel proud of, a future we are desiring, we need to let go of some things and make some decisions. These things are whatever the contents of the three spilled cups (see Five of Cups card) is for you. This card reveals that the reason things aren’t happening at the speed you want, the reason you are failing and being let down or feeling sabotaged, the reason you are drained, is because you are blocking yourself from moving forwards. You have shuttered your intuition and bound your true voice. You have stranded yourself on an inhospitable shore. And you are refusing to see clearly about certain things playing out in you life. Because of this, no ships full of treasure (see rocky shore, stormy sea, dark night…) can dock.

Watch the video or find the above cards, either in your own deck or from images online, and spend some time adding your own thoughts and realisations. This will help you to get the most out of the card and to implement the advice and guidance given.

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If you would like to know more about what is going on right now and would also like to hear more about my thoughts… I discuss the things that are coming up for me and how I am attempting to mother, manage, navigate and clear them in my own life on my YouTube channel in a section called A Little Light.

There are also lots of tarot card readings covering topical issues, as well as love, relationships, career, health and life, etc.

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Have a browse, give me a thumbs up, subscribe and leave a comment if you have anything you would like to share, ask or add. 

Thank you for reading and have a brave and beautiful day. x

Why am I getting so upset? Dialing into triggers and the truth behind what they are really about. 🧯

Emotional triggers can be difficult to understand and even more to influence because they tend to be automatic, meaning they happen in the heat of the moment before we have a chance to see them coming or intervene.

For example:

When our boss admonishes us at work for something we have done incorrectly… we are cut to the core: the wound is visceral, and we might weep.

Equally, if a waitress is short with us, or a bus driver bemoans us for not having the correct change: we might freeze, losing our voice or else shrink inwards in shame.

These reactions are exaggerated. We are having a large response to a small event. On the physical plane, at least, the trauma is minor. In our minds, however, and energetically, it is immense. It has snatched us up and taken us hostage to an earlier time; an instance where we were treated in a way that didn’t feel safe. This could be being disciplined as a child in a setting where we were forced to be silent. Or the constant daily repetition of being told we aren’t good enough.

Emotional triggers are serious because they rob us of our composure and when we lose it, our foundations are weak. We are strong only when we are ourselves as a fully integrated adult, when we are calm and reserved and grounded in our sense of self and place.

We all have people and things that cause us to lose it. And sometimes we are more than justified in our response. Perhaps we need to stand up for ourselves and exert our boundaries, because if we don’t no one else will. Perhaps we are on the path of learning to treat ourselves with more respect and love. But perhaps, too, this response is harmful, filling us up with excess cortisol and adrenaline, causing our nervous system to go into overdrive.

With all things, there is a balance and getting it right is a skill that constantly needs to be tweaked. Nobody is perfect. Even after years of therapy, I still unravel when the circumstances are right. What we can all do though is learn to see more clearly and endeavour to be more conscious, because the clearer we see and the more conscious we are, the less likely we are to shape shift in the heat of the moment.

The King of Pentacles reveals how we want to experience the world and how we would like to be treated by others.

In this world: we are king. We own a sizeable kingdom, over which we have control. We have everything we need: its presence guaranteed. As such we are comfortable and secure. And we feel protected and provided for.

It’s kind of like how our inner child envisions our life. Or how we wish it was and are always working towards achieving. We get upset, therefore, when we are challenged (our actions, choices, opinions…) because anyone questioning us and our ability threatens the foundations. We do not have deep roots. Any sharp breeze or medium-strength gust could uproot us.

This card indicates that what we most strongly desire – home, sanctuary, love, status, financial security, etc., still eludes us. And suggests that attempting to hold onto what we have managed to accumulate: a property we rent, a job that’s unstable, a partner who we don’t like or who might leave us, etc…? is causing us conflict. In many ways, we feel like an imposter because we are trying to balance two things – what we want and what we have – and it is dividing us, and this is where the triggering occurs. The King of Pentacles reveals this and shows us that we need to make a choice. Do we play it safe and stay where we are, or do we opt for transformation and adventure?

And this is where the Two of Wands comes in. In this card we see a man holding two poles, grappling with a decision. Does he choose the left, representing staying put, or the right, representing action? This here is our trigger. We are unhappy with where we are in our lives. We are tired of all of the compromises. We want mastery and to be in control. We are old enough, surely, and wise enough. We have worked hard thus far. But we are like this man: a peasant standing guard over someone else’s kingdom.

This card is a call to action. Decide to stay put and choose to accept what you have now and where you are and put down all complaints against it, surrendering your free will. Or act, walking away from everything that you know and have built in order to start again.

The Four of Swords is how we move towards a revolution and how we lend support to our triggered parts. In this card we see a tomb inside a sarcophagus, inside of which, we presume, there is a man. This card is suggesting that we allow a part of us time to rest, laying him or her aside for a period. In this sealed and protected space, we can drift into sleep, away from anxiety, worry, fear, concern, drama and conflict. A part of us can take a break, going on an inner retreat. This part isn’t dead, only sleeping, and once he or she is done, rested and recovered, they can be returned to us and our world.

The King of Swords offers us an alternative to the King of Pentacles energy: a new throne, and suggests we work to own it. In this picture the wealth we possess is knowledge and the kingdom we have mastery over is truth. If we can understand that our learning and what we choose to do with it is our power, far more than money ever will be, then we can have freedom from our triggers. Because no one can take the wealth of what we know and choose to believe away from us unless we permit it.

Are you ready to walk this path?

Are you brave enough to make some decisions?

This reading is a call to action, if ever there was one, but if you are here you are ready.

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What does my inner child need from me right now and how can I be of better service? 🧃🍦

If you are anything like me, you will have found the past four months deeply triggering: external events and the lack of solid facts waking wounds and insecurities you thought you had healed. As human beings, we need certain things in order to function properly; one of which is control over our lives. We also need to feel financially secure, or at least secure enough so that we can keep a roof over our heads and food on our tables in whatever way that translates for us. And we need people too, to take us out of our heads, to be a mirror to who we are and how we act, and to act as family and community. None of this has been available, at least not in the way we have previously known, and this has challenged, changed and provoked our thinking, seeing and experiencing, along with what we think we can expect to think, feel and experience in the future.

So our inner children are unsettled and creating chaos, because if you were little and suddenly got told by your parents that you couldn’t go out anymore and do the things that you love, or see your friends without wearing a mask for protection and didn’t know if you would still have your house next month, your parents their jobs, and you couldn’t go on holiday or buy new things because money was scarce and needed to be conserved not squandered, you’d be asking to be held and heard too.

So what can we do and how can we help?

The Eight of Swords shows us exactly what our inner child is experiencing and this looks a lot like persecution. The woman in the picture has been cast out, exiled from her rose-coloured castle on the mountain top. Left in the middle of nowhere in a clearing on the edge of the forest; tied up and blindfolded: she is unwanted and imprisoned, or this is how it feels to her.

She experiences this as:

  • nobody cares about me; and
  • I am a burden.

And, to a degree, she is correct. We have abandoned her – because she makes us feel uncomfortable, because she experiences the world viscerally, and in our current position of worry and overwhelm, we do not feel able to accommodate that. We are just about able to hold ourselves together, to contain our current version of self-created reality. To let her in, to experience her in all of her anguish and discomfort, all of her messy rage, is to risk all of that crumbling and with it the full weight of the truth as it comes crashing in. This card is predominantly about difficulties in overcoming restriction. It is a metaphor for both the external world and also the inner one. Look closely at how you feel about the world and how you feel it treats you and then reflect on how you treat your inner child. Could there be synchronicities here? If you were kinder to your inner child, do you think maybe the world, the Grand Mother and Great Father, would in turn be kinder to you?

The Nine of Pentacles shows us what she would prefer and what is possible if we can reintegrate her. We can view this card as a mirror for the previous card, an alternate version of the same reality. Instead of being cast out from the rose-coloured castle, this woman lives happily inside of it, free to move around as she pleases, visiting the garden, tending to the plants, mixing with and befriending the animals. The creatures are her friends here, and the environment works in harmony with her own energy system. She is a co-creator in this landscape. Think how happy and healthy we could be if only we could trust this, if we could open ourselves up to the possibility that our inner child is both our ally and our friend. This card represents success and enjoyment and what could be ours with a little work.

The King of Pentacles is the ultimate goal, for he not only lives in the castle but also owns it. If we can trust in our inner power, in our ability to do and create what we set our hearts to and our minds upon, we can live with our inner children, trusting in our ability to take care of both them and ourselves, all working together to create wealth, health and harmony. If we look at the journey of the cards, all we need in order to feel settled, safe, secure, sane, cheerful, capable and grounded, is to take off the blindfold and trust in our version of the world. Be the creator. Make pretty pictures with grey crayons. This card represents financial stability and security, a future that is waiting to come in when we are ready.

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What is the biggest obstacle 🚧 that stands in my way right now?

There are many stages in life, each of them with their own hurdles and hoops. Some of these are easy to overcome, others not. Perhaps, too, as we get older, the direction we are supposed to follow becomes less clear, so it’s not so much jumping the hurdles or navigating the hoops but knowing where they are located to begin with. No one ever said it was supposed to be easy, but sometimes it seems overly hard.

This reading is intended to help you to see those obstacles, arming you with the knowledge to move past them. Whether you are single and looking for love, unemployed and looking for work, unwell and striving for health, etc., there is usually a reason why things aren’t working out and finding that reason can be the key to receiving the ‘all’ you desire, deserve and want.

The Four of Pentacles 💶 represents where we are right now and shows us the obstacle. We see a man of moderate wealth clinging onto his possessions for fear of losing them. He strikes us as someone who is deeply insecure, perhaps suffering from imposter syndrome, who, despite having gained experience, wealth, knowledge, skill, respect, notoriety, etc., still does not trust himself (and, as a result, others). It indicates that the real obstacle – between you and love, friendship, success, health, etc., – is your (dear, sweet, wounded, yet-to-be-fully-rounded, vulnerable ) self. A painful truth, but useful nevertheless.

The Justice ⚖️ card then moves on towards the answer, another painful truth, but one with the means to release us from the bars and the chains of our own psyche. To get what you want, i.e. remove the obstacle, you must undertake a thorough examination of self. Imagine a court, with yourself as the accused and/or the victim. Introduce two lawyers: a defense attorney and a prosecutor. Now role play through a trial, in which you interview yourself thoroughly. Don’t just accept the answers: look for holes in the truth, act upon the notion of guilty until proven innocent, ask difficult questions, get to the heart of the matter. You might think you are doing everything that you can, that your behaviour is exemplary, but there are areas where you are sabotaging and blocking yourself. Find those and you have something to work with. Essentially, we are talking about a core wound that has been left to fester.

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Will this relationship last? ⛩

Relationships are tricky and complicated things. Whenever there is more than one person involved, there are more feelings, memories, wounds and past experiences to be taken into consideration in the union. And, if we or our partner, be they our actual partner or our desired partner, have traumas that have yet to be released, the landscape gets more muddled.

Hurt people hurt people. Lost people don’t know how to find themselves, let alone find and be there with you. Abandoned children aren’t very good at connecting and communicating. And that’s just the start.

This reading aims to help you to work out if this relationship is a keeper, and then, if you decide it is, offer up some guidance about how to keep it.

Make a tea.
Grab a blanket.

Get comfy.
Settle in for a slightly bumpy ride.

The Emperor presents to us a person who is aloof, unreachable almost. He sits upon his lofty throne in his far off, hard to reach, kingdom, protected by his armour and his minions. He is cold, hard and unmovable, stuck in his ways and fixed on his points. His opinions are like rock upon which your quiet voice is rebuked and silenced. This person is trapped in the past, fighting distant childhood battles only they are privy to. In the present they are distant, sad, shut off. The harder you try to reach them the harder they push back. Perhaps feelings of unworthiness are the issue? Beware of their anger, it is like a mighty fire that will try to consume you. Treat them with care like you would a wounded dog, for cornered they will likely bite. This is who they are right now, if nothing else changes. Their mind is fixated on their work and on empire building, it is them against the world, and you, my dear, are part of that world too.

In order to get close to them, you first have to find a way to lead them to heal. This work is not for the faint hearted.

The Knight of Pentacles offers some hope, for this is who this person can become if they take action. This will require looking directly at the things that scare them the most and the things they have spent their life trying to run from. It might well be triggering and release some pretty powerful emotions. And if you are standing too close you might well get hurt. But the way is clear. Instead of focusing on their own empire, working solely for themselves and their own gain, they need to step down and join the people, becoming part of a common goal. In service to a greater population, they will find a more righteous path and in doing so release and heal what they have long been carrying. The key is in turning their passion, their goal, their desired means of income and career, into one that can help many people. Essentially being of service. For in healing others we, in turn, find ways to heal ourselves.

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How can I heal my thyroid 🦋 and speak my truth?

Today’s reading is all about the thyroid and the throat chakra, an energy and a physical centre of much angst and confusion. We all struggle to speak our truth, some of us more than others. Childhood, schooling, life experiences… have pushed it into corners. Each slight or harsh remark. Each person who ignored us or shut us down. Each failed attempt at expressing what was in our heart. They all impact our confidence in who and how we are. Perhaps you suppress your truth in order to appeal or appease? Perhaps life is simply simpler that way. Perhaps owning your truth, your real you, would rock a steady boat?

Wherever you are in regards to that voice, that truth, it’s ok. This is not supposed to be a short journey or one you are meant to reach the end of too soon. It’s a continual expanding and growing, one that you will continue to nurture for the rest of your days. But your throat and your thyroid, if they are speaking/hurting, indicate stagnation and blocks, and this is what we want to be focussing on here. 

This two card reading will help you to do just that so that you can be you with more confidence.

The Page of Pentacles shows us where we are, which is actually a pretty good place, even if we might not currently think so. No matter how we feel and what we are experiencing, we have done a lot of work and moved a long way. Now, however, we are stuck, in that place of looking to others, higher powers, for answers… and maybe we have asked and learned all there is to know… and done our done due diligence and our apprenticeship… and are actually ready, armed with enough experience and learning, to go into the world? It’s time to take a deep breath, man (or woman) -up and trust. You’ve created and crafted a beautiful seed. Now you need to plant it.

The Knight of Pentacles is the perfect next step and partner to the Page. The future and the solution lie in finding out what tree that seed will grow. What is your calling? What is your cause? Who are you really supposed to be? Point yourself in that direction, take a deep grounding breath, and put your feet into action. One step at a time, checking in daily, follow that yellow (solar plexus, intuition, gut instinct) bricked road.

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